busy busy me

I am doing a lot of things right now. Life is awesome. A new job, a few album projects in the works, and the summer en route. We are just moving right along.

I am also approaching my 1 year anniversary and I just have to say that I love my beautiful wife a little more each day.

I would like to wish good fortune and good health upon everyone in the world.

it begins again

I have been archiving incarnations of my personal web site and blog posts since 2005 now, and I am once again shifting gears in my personal engine of feeds and re-posting mechanisms. :)

Tumblr now is my vehicle for blog posts and I'll just copy over the same copy every time I write something. It's not ideal but it will work for now until I find time to automate the re-posts. At the end of the day, I spend way more time writing it than anything else. The reason I like Tumblr is that it will automate the tweets and the Facebook posts, and that saves me a lot of time right there.

When you are in the top million it really makes you want to keep stepping up your game.

I finally signed up for tumblr

So there will be another mirror of posts from TheAxelVault - in addition to kristeraxel.com which generates the majority of Krister Axel traffic, my blog posts will shoot out to tumblr as well. It can't hurt. Plus it's fun to play around with a new UI. Maybe I'll think of something fun to do with it. Let's hope this works out better than my little stint over at vox.com which was horrible.

Tumblr seems clean and functional. Very nice. The page will look much better once my Zimbalam distribution goes live on Christmas day. Awwww.

http://kristeraxel.tumblr.com/

I will also have a new release in the next year, with 4 songs that were produced by LOONER and honestly are some of the best I've ever done.

trickle down my arse

quoted from: http://crookedtimber.org/2009/12/17/bookblogging-the-failure-of-trickle-...

"The trickle-down theory can be examined using the tools of econometrics. But, at least for the US, no such sophisticated analysis is required. The raw data on income distribution shows that households in the bottom half of the income distribution gained nothing from the decades of market liberalism. Although apologists for market liberalism have offered various arguments to suggest that the raw data gives the wrong impression, none of these arguments stand up to scrutiny. All the evidence supports the commonsense conclusion that policies designed to benefit the rich at the expense of the poor have done precisely that."

We are in the top one million

Which means nothing except that I am part of the list that gets downloaded every day at http://www.alexa.com/topsites.

Cool! Thanks for the love, internets.

cap and trade is bollocks

quoted from: http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/07/opinion/07hansen.html

If that isn’t bad enough, Wall Street is poised to make billions of dollars in the “trade” part of cap-and-trade. The market for trading permits to emit carbon appears likely to be loosely regulated, to be open to speculators and to include derivatives. All the profits of this pollution trading system would be extracted from the public via increased energy prices.

There is a better alternative, one that would be more efficient and less costly than cap and trade: “fee and dividend.” Under this approach, a gradually rising carbon fee would be collected at the mine or port of entry for each fossil fuel (coal, oil and gas). The fee would be uniform, a certain number of dollars per ton of carbon dioxide in the fuel. The public would not directly pay any fee, but the price of goods would rise in proportion to how much carbon-emitting fuel is used in their production.

Empty

Sometimes I'm empty
and I'm waiting for the sound of a friendly voice
sometimes I think I know better
that true passion lives alone
I make motions in the desert
I assemble my defense
like a brittle mountain
as the earth begins to shake

I am at war now
with the cold tyrants of mediocrity
I see that I've fallen
where my instincts led and left me
I am shaking in the desert
I assemble my beliefs
These little soldiers
marching through the heat

My sweetest friend
your heart is always pure
I imagine life through your eyes
and I wish that I could give more
I only have one chance
to build some blessed destiny
with these words of mine
this voice and these dreams

I am unraveled
the walls of my heart are scoured clean
I feel the seasons
raw and hungry for completion
the world is patient
I am frantic in my lust
for a perfect diamond
some piece of god that I can touch

as long as i have you

you were always out of town
i was always on the way
i could barely see the light
but you could blind me just the same
no one ever knew the truth
but you were always on my mind
all i saw was you
i was waiting for a sign
we were lovers then
we were lovers all the time

you could never stay too long
because you always had to work
but i did the best i could
and you showed me what it's worth
i never rushed a thing
i was careful just like you
you took my only heart
and kept me for your fool
we were lover then
even if you made the rules

i could find your heart
in the pitch black dark
when the colors run
and the night has just begun
i will never stray
i won't lose my way
as long as i have you
as long as i have you

we're here with all our friends
this night will never end
now we stare across the sea
now your love is here with me
now we'll never be apart
now I know just who you are
you're the one I'd hoped to find
I was searching all the time
so let's celebrate
let's celebrate tonight

as long as i have you
i will never be afraid
i will never lose my way

as long as i have you

haiku one fifteen am april 2009

Hollywood is a
bunch of memories now. sigh.
all the billboards suck

Open Arms

It was all for you
The long expensive road to nothing new
These unappreciated lines for you
Falling on this tough love crowd, it’s true
I did it all for you
Open arms
There’s nothing better than those ample charms
Somewhere waiting for the world to start
Somehow afflicted by a broken heart
Looking for those open arms

When I was a prince of the world
All I had was a long list of words
All I saw I could touch with my hands
All I needed was
All I needed was a chance

Those days are gone
I think I see your yesterdays moved on
They left behind that dirty smile you’ve got
Younger than your timeless ways
Your yesterdays
I know all your tricks
I know the way your heart can hurt like this
I hate the way my plan can miss like this
But there’s no changing what my future is
I know all your tricks

When I was ahead of it all
And I could see what was coming along
Everybody knew the way to get home, but me
All I needed was
All I needed was a dream

words to weighty ghost by wintersleep

I got out of bed today
swear to god I couldn't see my face
I got out of bed today
staring at a ghost
who forgot to float away
didn't have all that much to say
wouldn't even tell me his own name
and where'd my body go
oh where'd my body go
africa or mexico
where'd my body go
where'd my body go
oh have you seen my ghost
staring at the ground
oh have you seen my ghost
sick of them goddam clouds

are you some kind of medicine man
get the demons out of my head
you can't kill the thing that's already dead
so leave my soul alone
don't need no surgery
take those knives away from me
just want to die in my own body
a ghost just needs a home

nananana

old old old poem

To all my friends
All my muses
Washed up dreams
And lonely blueses.

Before you turn away

I left my broken down in Texas
the road has never felt so long
along the way I start to wonder
who will miss me when I'm gone?

if you don't mind waiting
for the news to break
before you turn away
before you turn away
if you don't mind waiting
for the news to break
before you turn away

Some say there's nothing after dying
that all we have is in this world
I don't know much about tomorrow
but right now I feel pretty good

if you don't mind waiting
for the drugs to take
before you turn away
before you turn away
if you don't mind waiting
for the drugs to take
before you turn away

it's a life worth saving
and a chance worth taking
before you turn away
before you turn away
it's a life worth saving
and a chance worth taking
before you turn away

I wrote this 12 years ago

just this little stash of survival
never had a moment to think
radio voices sound like someone I know
moonlight makes me want to have a drink
I listen to the rhythm of the traffic
hiding in the silence I project
push me through the womb of the future
bear me as an infant to protect
an island on the ocean planet 'solo'
wailing of the unborn tragedy
wiping from my eyes the mess of martyrs
the burden of my passage through the freeze

lyrics to Rain On Me

When I was old enough to dance
when I was high enough to see
anywhere the sky is dark
it rains on me

and I race
just to fall
just to be where you are

all we are is all we are
what we learn is what we teach
anywhere the sky is dark
it rains on me

and I race
just to fall
just to be where you are
I race
if there's nothing in this world
you put something in the dirt
and rain on me

it don't matter what you do
it don't matter what you eat
if you don't know the truth
you won't be free

don't wait
don't wait for me
I race
if there's nothing in this world
you put something in the dirt
and rain on me

from the album Fast Train (2008)

I would answer you with 2am

I would answer you with 2am
With opinions about my state
Staying up late

I don’t know where I am
This voice beneath the hum
I spend my nights alone with words
The echo of a drum
I love the way we talk
This language of the soul

I want to thank you for saying my name

Some thirst for perfection
guides my days. Like noise
in long breaths of scented smoke
the poison of poetic lust
grows in my blood like a weed
I accept this. Every hour
Pushing with what strength I have
Against yesterday

Where once was a child is now
A fool. He follows heat
And questions what is fire
I am this champion of doubt
Against what can’t be named
I accept this. With my words
Construction of simple color
The unknown voice

Never seen. Decides what is real

And the sad eyes of exhaustion
ever wise. In this life will be